what to do with idiotism?

why have i not posted anything for a long time...
and the last entry was just a general view.

yet, so many has occured.
so many.
the thing is,
i dont know where to start,
which one i should talk about.
sometimes, i just shut my brain,
and i end up with nothing to say.

anywho, these r the summarize of things i could think of right now;

u know how much ppl can be stupid?
a lot.
so much.
ppl r just so damn stupid.
and,
its really hard living in a foreign country,
even more when they speak a language u're not so mastered of.
physically difference and language barrier,
to have a great social life,
is a unique challenge.
and sometimes u just want to quit,
but it's everyday.
u need to have the spirit every single day.
no chance for a day off and go back to a lovely place where u dunt have to go through all this shit.
and to make things worst,
im the only msian for the 3rd year here.

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im in a new place now.
i've entered école.
its a hard place to get into actually.
from a group of eleven, only three got a place in an école.
i entered this one as the other two went to another école.
they had higher marks then i did, so they entered a harder école.
i was lucky enough to get my ass in an 'école'.
it doesnt matter high or low,
its an "école".

although ppl outside european countries r normally not aware of the french system,
it is a great opportunity for me to be here,
which makes my life story even better.
i carry my school name,
the normal daily school in a small town in penang,
manage to get his student in an engineering école.

i like to think of myself as a person with responsibility on his shoulder (which is true for everyone...),
that's how i get this body up everyday, going through all the crap of the day,
and hoping for a better one tomorrow.
i dont have a motivater next to me,
so, this kind of thoughts can blow up some wind of spirit to this feather-like body.

i stop here,
need to sleep and face tomorrow.