To what can I devote my life?

ok, here's the plan. tenteretenten...
i study for another 3years, do some internship in an international company,
do one year job here (usually with the company i hook up with for my internship), then go back to find a good job with my master and experience. That will secure a good pay job.
the town? i dun know yet, whether KL or Png. i dont want any other place as i take environment as an important value.
Then...
well, thts the furthest point of Adely's big plan.

What about my dream?
well, there is no dream.
im just following the normal 'trying to make a living' system.

ok, maybe i can go as far as what field i want to be involved in.
right now im interested in energy.
So, maybe i'll work in a company thats searching for an alternative energy like Shell or something.
i prefer not Petronas.
Designing a new system that consume different type of intake and yet can produce the same mechanical power. Yeah, that would be the field im interested in.
So, on my fifth year, i think i'll be taking the energy and environmental option.

I know i like studying a system.
during my last internship, studying about transforming explosion to electrical energy is fascinating enough.
I just like the surface facts though, the understanding structure, not the truly in detail stuff, like a very, very detail stuff.
I hate looking at an enormous abandoned data.
It'll look like a bunch of math problems rumble in one section for one and only purpose- to kill and destroy your brain cells.

i have to think about this stuff, coz i think its about time i have to think what im going to do in my life. (And this time im serious)
i cant just follow the normal 'trying to make a living' system coz if i do, then all of my effort will serve for nothing. Like a lot of Nutella been put on your bread but in the end the bread fell into the garbage bin.
My mechanical lecturer, M. Fabien, once told me, the reason he went to école and study hard is so that there would be more doors open once he graduated. Its not about the money, but it is so that u can have more choices on what you want to do in life.

So, im 22 now, a 3rd-year student, and i dont have a clear view on which path im going to take.

its not the question what i like to do, but its whether i could spend 10 or more years doing it.
Money will come along.
Funny enough, after 3 years in the field of mechanical engineering, i dont find any subject that truly captures me. Wait, thats not funny at all, its kind of sad..
Sure i like calculating mechanical system, but, i dont see how tht'll be useful in my life. And i dont want to hear that i'ld see the use of it later, coz everybody's keep saying that so its obviously not the right answer. If it is, then everybody would be 'Winners'.

Something tht i find joy in, even after 10 years of doing it.
i have to find it before i graduates, to keep me from being suck-in their 'trying to make a living' system. because if that happens, then it'ld be too late. i wont longer find the need to pursue my dream and would just want to make a living...
i wont throw away my bread full of Nutella, i'll keep pushing myself so that i'll find joy in my future.

The key is to relax, and try to minimize the scope.
i know that it'ld be in one of physics's branch.

*to be continued*