Love, Fear, Reward

"Takutlah kamu akan neraka-Nya, akan bala-Nya, tp, jgnlah kamu takut akan Tuhan mu, tp sayangilah Dia, spt mana Dia menyayangi kamu"


"Afraid of his damnation, of his wrath, but not be afraid of Him, instead, love Him as He has loved you."

Which means that the phrase, "Jangan takut kpd apa2 shj kecuali Tuhan." (not be afraid of anything except God) is incorrect.

The right phrase should be, "Janganlah takut kpd kuasa lain selain kuasa Tuhan."
("Be afraid not of other power accept the ones of His Almighty")

i think, being afraid is normal. u're afraid of dark, afraid of walking alone in a lonely alleyway, etc. Those feelings are normal. infact, it could be usefull, for God would not give us that feeling for no reason.

So, we can be afraid, other than of God, im afraid of a lot of things. that doesnt make me an unbeliever, tht just makes me normal. those who says he's not afraid of anything except God, i dare say is a hypocrite.


Why i say, be afraid of God's damnation but not God, is for the simple reason, which is,
how can we love something/someone which/whom we're afraid of?

there are three ways to make us do something, through love, fear or rewarding.

u choose the path.

When u 've done a good deed, are u expecting a prize from God(pahala)?


why are we molding ourselves as somebody who always expect something in return even if it is for a good cause?

do things,
be a good person,
be good to other ppl,
just for the sake of love to your God.

Thts all,
nothing more and nothing less.

purify our heart with willingness.

Fear will put us in a cage,
makes us harder to think by ourselves
always having bad thought will darken our heart

Gosh, this world will turn in a much beautiful way if love is always the reason.

what to do with idiotism?

why have i not posted anything for a long time...
and the last entry was just a general view.

yet, so many has occured.
so many.
the thing is,
i dont know where to start,
which one i should talk about.
sometimes, i just shut my brain,
and i end up with nothing to say.

anywho, these r the summarize of things i could think of right now;

u know how much ppl can be stupid?
a lot.
so much.
ppl r just so damn stupid.
and,
its really hard living in a foreign country,
even more when they speak a language u're not so mastered of.
physically difference and language barrier,
to have a great social life,
is a unique challenge.
and sometimes u just want to quit,
but it's everyday.
u need to have the spirit every single day.
no chance for a day off and go back to a lovely place where u dunt have to go through all this shit.
and to make things worst,
im the only msian for the 3rd year here.

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im in a new place now.
i've entered école.
its a hard place to get into actually.
from a group of eleven, only three got a place in an école.
i entered this one as the other two went to another école.
they had higher marks then i did, so they entered a harder école.
i was lucky enough to get my ass in an 'école'.
it doesnt matter high or low,
its an "école".

although ppl outside european countries r normally not aware of the french system,
it is a great opportunity for me to be here,
which makes my life story even better.
i carry my school name,
the normal daily school in a small town in penang,
manage to get his student in an engineering école.

i like to think of myself as a person with responsibility on his shoulder (which is true for everyone...),
that's how i get this body up everyday, going through all the crap of the day,
and hoping for a better one tomorrow.
i dont have a motivater next to me,
so, this kind of thoughts can blow up some wind of spirit to this feather-like body.

i stop here,
need to sleep and face tomorrow.

im back

sometimes, when im with other people, and i feel like they're expecting my reaction,

which then makes me worry of how to please them,

i imagine my time alone, then,

i am myself again.

Philippe ARMAND

Monsieur Philippe ARMAND,

He’s a family man with two small children, a cute boy and an adorable girl.

He has their photos all over the wall in his work place.

The company he’s working in is ELECTRABEL SUEZ France;

a company responsible in supplying electrical power all over Europe.

He’s in charge of a gas turbine combined cycle that would be constructed in Fos-sur-Mer, a place near to a sea in the south of France.

A chance for me to work with Electrabel, also give me the opportunity to know this person.

He is one of those French that’s not arrogant, and see u as equal, even though u’re a foreigner and have different skin color.

He always sings in the office, it’s a way, I found most people do, to cheer the place up and mostly their feeling.

He has a lot of work, like any other engineers would, but he never neglect me as an internship student.

His fav words were 'Selamar Tinggal', 'Selamat Jalan', and 'Selamat Pagi'.

He learnt them back in the old days when he had to work in Borneo.

he explained how the townfolks always replied yes to his questions, but when he speak in their native tongue which is 'Mengerti?', they'ld reply, 'sikit2'.

There were times when the air becomes heavy, but, what I remember most about him,

Is how he tried to be a good industrial tutor, even though he actually didn’t really need to.

Sometimes, I was late, didn’t even go to the office and I gave him fictitious reasons.

How I wish I could admit that to him before our last meeting last Friday.

Strange how being somewhere, just for a little amount of time, could bring a big effect to your life.

Like when I worked as a promoter in Pacific Megamall. It was just a month, but the memory, the experience, really changed me, and I could still remember those moments till now. How big it has contributed in my life.

The same goes for my first internship.

Even though it was just 10weeks, minus the time I skipped, I have gain, so much, so much, in terms of professional career, my confidence, my capability, my view towards people, knowing my own skill and much more.

It was not just an industrial training; it was a new exploration in life.

That’s how much this internship means to me.

Thank God, for giving me the opportunity to take this route,

And M. Philippe ARMAND, who has now I see, not just as a tutor, but a friend,

A friend I respect and remember my whole life.

Michel, me(damn i look small with them on my side) and Philippe.

Action director

The effects-laden superhero actioner posed challenges for the filmmakers. "I’d never done CG (special effects) before," explains Leterrier, "but to be purely honest, the biggest challenge was realising I was the director. I was in charge.

 

 

- action director Louis Leterrier on his film Hulk

No day but Today

okkkk...today in history. i have finished, my DUT!!!! ITS FINISHED! No more, student of IUT Aix en Provence, now, its going to be,student of école sumthing2.. which is better! lot better!! hahaha!!! Gosh.. time does fly fast. now, i already ended sumthin i started two years ago. now i have a diploma.sumthin that i can represent other than my spm. (that can be use to ask for a job) this is the next level.i have been upgraded to a diploma graduated student! how cool is that?? haha.ok, in France, u have to do a diploma first before degree. atleast thats how the path im in works. so, as of today, that one is finish, right now, the pursuit for master in 3years time begins. (thats right, no degree...) i will move out soon.but before that... summer HOLIDAY. what should i do? who would i meet? we'll see soon enough.but one thing for sure. it will be full of EXPERIENCE. which is what i search in life!